…delusional

…what’s wrong with me-

feeling untouched at almost 50-

melatonin skin beside me, yet the loneliness is sickening-

sometimes i just wanna post an ad-

curvy as fck, black mid aged woman, in need of grown mans touch-

serious inquiries only-

must be able to make me forget the night is the night, and the sun shall ever come-

to convince me im momentarily yours and kiss me until my thoughts obey, and become emotionally tamed-

tonight if possible, as tomorrow is never guaranteed;

and my mind needs this asap.

and my body needs it sooner.

because im screaming within-

delusional thoughts of dying before my skins first feed-

what’s wrong with me-

ass fat as fck, and this ngga sleep-

maybe im not the delusional one-

maybe he is-

or maybe it is me-

for not waiting…

on God.

yeah,

definitely me.

kb 😞

forgive me father.