…if no robe, then what?

…i beg for a peace i cannot seem to find-

a full psychological calm-

im waving a white flag against my own mind, that tells me to be no more-

how does one touch the robe of Jesus if that moment was and no longer is?

surely it would mute the voices my mind flees from-

surely it would terrify the lions that come for me-

what symbolizes your robe today father?

what am i not reaching for?

what do i not see?

please have mercy father, as i seek-

please guide me in a way that my mind will understand-

im afraid father-

im so afraid-

please don’t leave me.

kb